smile can hide everything

the final test is coming!! damn stress right now!! tis few day i try to smile as much as i could but something i cant hide is my true feeling! i tis few day i always sad but i try to smile n i did it!! nodoby know that i am sad!! mayb i too tired n feel wan to have a loud cry to unstress myself but i could not coz i wan be a true guy!! guy should not cry easily!! i dun know wat will happen to me if i fail my AS!! i try to study hard but sometimes study hard wont gurantee u get a good result!! tis is wat i scare the most!! once i think i got bad result i feel wan to cry!! i think i reali fell that feeling that y people cry when they get bad result coz they reali put effort n time to studybut they still didnt achieve wat they wan!! now i try to push myself until limit,i use all the time on study but i got a kind of feeling that i will dissappoint myself tis time!! seriously tis is my 1st time got tis feeling but i hope is not true!!! i reali dun wan think about it but i think i should made a worst preparation that i will get bad result!! people study before is too late!! u can change everything the matter is u wan or dun wan to make a change!!!